Hush Hush Sweet Sue
By Susan C.
Darkness came and went
My life crippled with unease
The boogie man at every corner
Takes me to my knees
A child of sickness, it was a sad beginning for sure
No family present to bring me a cure
Hush hush sweet Sue take a sip, she’d say
in the morning you’ll be better to go out and play
My head is heavy, full of confusion
Could not understand full of delusion
So many problems with no solutions
Could not learn my brain is asleep
A child of parents who don’t give a peep
Mother and Father hopelessly addicted and sick
One more drink will do the trick
Family in chaos I am in charge
A child no longer a caretaker at-large
Hush hush sweet Sue she’d say, pay no attention to us
In the morning the story changes and so do all of us
Don’t know the truth–One day rich next day poor
Who are we? Where are we? Is the boogie man at the front door?
Hush hush sweet Sue, she’d say, tell the banker,
and the paperboy too
come back another day for the money that is due
My stomach aches, anxiety and depression are deep
My life is over, should I take the leap?
Should I end it all or go to the mall?
Or just down some alcohol?
Childhood is short, forced to grow up fast
Dad drinks all day, and Mother relaxed
What am I to do? When can I leave? What is the answer to this family disease?
Took me decades to figure it out and put it to rest
Sweet Sue is here to tell you she did not know best!!
I’m grown up now as I stand before you
I have become a new person – I’m no longer Sweet Sue
Hush hush, she’d say I am so sorry for my bad deeds,
I beg for forgiveness I am on my knees
I loved you with all my heart
The disease of alcoholism tore me apart
Hush hush sweet Mother you suffered in the end
Nobody around but me to hold your hand
You told me you loved me on your bed of death
Thank you for saying this as you drew your last breath
Hush hush sweet Mother, you are gone
My family and I have lived on
Eighteen years clean and sober
No longer harmed by my past, all of that is over
I am thankful for the fellowship, the program of AA
and my sobriety today
I no longer have the ache from my past
AA has taught me a way to live that lasts and lasts
I do as I have been taught; I listen to what you say
I thank God for another sober day